Friday, August 1, 2008


As I sit here at work becoming incredibly farther behind I can't help but reflect on my life. For the past 15 years I've been injecting myself with insulin to live. Tomorrow morning that all changes. I haven't done anything else except live for longer than 15 years. Kind of crazy! Somebody was asking me what an insulin pump was like and I replied, like an external hard drive for your computer. All the non-diabetics out there have a normal operating pancreas, I don't. My normal operating pancreas will be on the outside now.

As I enter this world of unknown I take comfort in the fact that the pump will make my life better. No more carbo loading right before rides just so my blood sugar doesn't crash. No more digging for a patch of stomach in the middle of winter under all of my button down shirts to give a shot....8 times a day! No more $30 co-pays every 50 days for humalog AND launtus. In time, no more getting up every night because your crazy metabolism breaks down 24 hour insulin in 19 hours.

I'm excited to see where I'm at in a year. Next summer will be the summer of cycling. My life has changed a lot in the last year. I'm single now, live alone, moving to an insulin pump, cycle regularly, volunteer often, have a brother who is showing cancer that it picked the wrong mofo to mess with, picked up massive accounts at work and reconnected with my spirit a bit! I feel like my life is heading in the right direction. I am happy!


tracie said...

great post! enjoy this new phase of your life (and cycling! :).

Lindsey G said...

I love the external hard drive comparison! Sometimes it's so hard to explain why an insulin pump is so incredible...and overcome the stereotype that people with insulin pumps are "bad" diabetics. Congrats on your start!


Karen said...

GOOD FOR YOU!!!! I've been pumping for 3 1/2 months now, after over 28 years with injections. I couldn't be more thrilled (although I was petrified to make the switch), and I'm hoping you will feel the exact same way. With your positive attitude, I'm sure you will do great. Keep us posted on how it's going. :)