Thursday, November 27, 2008


Peace, love and turkey for everyone!!! :)

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I Love Turkey!

Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday!!! A holiday based around food and giving thanks to what you have. What could be better??? I know, I will hear no less than 5 times around the holiday should you be eating that or can you eat that? My question back is should you? If it's that questionable then why the hell are you putting it in your mouth as well??? YES, I can eat that and you know what I'm probably 10 times as aware of what I eat then a person without diabetes. So, don't ask! lol I don't let it get to me though, I've made it 15 years without complications, I'll make it 60 more!!! And I feel damn good!

Wow, I didn't mean to rant. Yikes, I'm turning into Debbie downer! Sorry work is CRAZY and it gets to me sometimes. However, I do have my little oasis away from the everyday grind that makes me incredibly happy and relaxed. Thanks for putting up with my craziness Molly!!! :)

On the workout front...(cricket, cricket)...yeah, I need to get on that! I feel lazy but don't have much energy after a long day of work to kick my own ass after everyone else has kicked it all day! lol

Tomorrow I'll be taking my brother to an Indians game. A happy departure I'm sure from hanging with Mom and Dad and spending last week in the hospital for chemo and being sick. Our sister and her fiance will be joining us as well so it should be a good time! :)

Like I said in the beginning, totally looking forward to Thanksgiving and spending it with Molly and family!!! :)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Best Birthday Ever!

This past Saturday was my birthday and I tried my best to take time out of my crazy schedule to enjoy it. Molly helped to make this the best birthday ever! It started Thursday with a surprise from Molly, she got us tickets to the Carlos Mencia show at the Playhouse in Cleveland. We were both crazy on Thursday but managed to get up there have a nice quiet dinner at Bricco and still make it to the show with plenty of time to spare. The show was GREAT and incredibly funny! Thanks Molly, you're the best!!!

Friday came around and I couldn't decide what to do. Either stay in for a nice quiet dinner with Molly or we were going to go out somewhere for dinner. Since it took me so long to decide it was now 7pm so we decided to go out so we would get our food quicker. We went to the Wing Warehouse in Cuyahoga Falls that also is the home of the $4 fishbowl of Long Island Ice Tea. Molly agreed to be my DD as my friends and coworkers started to show up. Here's a timeline of the evening: Fishbowl 1, eat, fishbowl 2, fishbowl 3, karaoke 1, fishbowl 4, karaoke 2, fishbowl 5, help everyone else karaoke, fishbowl 6, get sick all over bathroom, Molly closes tab, leave, pass out on bed. Everything after fishbowl 4 is a little fuzzy, I gathered the rest from conversations the next day! :)

Saturday I was heading home to see the family, I didn't leave my place until 10:30am. I was way too drunk to drive before that to drive home. So needless to say I was feeling like shit all day long. Happy Birthday to me. lol My own fault, no more drinking like I was in college again. Had a great bday with the family, however, seeing the 6er of Christmas Ale they got me did make my stomach churn a bit. We went to Quaker Steak for dinner, my brothers favorite place! I was indifferent about where we ate so he got to choose. Then my parents had cake and ice cream after that. I was stuffed!

That evening and Sunday were spent relaxing with Molly and just laying low. Molly is incredible and I have to throw out a big thank you to her for helping to make my birthday freakin awesome!!!

In other news:
Insulin Pump: doing pretty good, still trying to dial it all in now that I'm not working out as much. Carb counting still remains challenging as usual, test, test, test is my motto recently.

Brother: Doing good, went in for another round of chemo yesterday along with various tests. He should be out of the hospital late tomorrow.

Parents: Happy 30th Anniversary today!!!!

Sister: Doing fine after being hit by a car as she was crossing the street. I think her ego may have a pretty serious bruise on it.

Work: BUSY! Launching a new brand, three new products, new website, two trade show booths, prepping POS for 2009 credit program and planning two brand marketing strategies for 2009 I ask, when is my next vacation!!!

Bike: Below $1500 left to pay!!! I'm excited already.

All is well, still wish I could do more riding.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Holiday Today???

YES!!! It's World Diabetes Day today!!!!

World Diabetes Day (WDD) is the primary global awareness campaign of the diabetes world. It was introduced in 1991 by the International Diabetes Federation (IDF) and the World Health Organization (WHO) in response to the alarming rise in diabetes around the world. In 2007, the United Nations marked the Day for the first time with the passage of the United Nations World Diabetes Day Resolution in December 2006, which made the existing World Diabetes Day an official United Nations World Health Day.

Here is a link to find out more about WDD:

Here is a picture of Molly and I supporting the cause and wearing Blue today!!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I've Fallen And I Can't Get Up!!!

Ok, I feel it. That pressure and anger when all you want to do is ride or run or workout but can't. I think I have a bad case of the daylight savings blues. I want to ride but can't find the motivation. I would be happy just working out in some sort of way. Maybe I feel angry that I had a 12 hour day at work. Not just any 12 hour day but a 12 hour day where you bust your ass only to create more work. :(

I want to ride my bike, I want to get the hell out and do some riding. The kind that makes your legs feel like jello!

In other news I signed up for the Tour de Cure. My goal is to raise at least $1,000 to help find a cure for diabetes. I raised $850 in 6 days last year so this shouldn't be a problem but ya never know. I signed up for the 62 miler on June 14th. No wussing out next year and taking the shorter route because it's too hot, too cold, too rainy, too windy, etc. Put up or shut up. That's my motto in 2009! Well enough ranting for the evening time to get some rest, I have been home for a solid 2 hours now! WOW!

Any words of wisdom to get out of this rut would be greatly appreciated!!!

It's been a little while....

Since I've posted a picture of my brother. I like how he reminds to do a lot of things in life. Not give up, stay strong, enjoy myself, don't wait until tomorrow, enjoy the little things and in the great words of one of my favorite bands Don't Stop Believing.

He's the coolest guy you could meet, the pics are of us at the Air Show and the other is us probably causing some sort of trouble at home!!! Or maybe him showing how much taller than me he is...with his shoes off!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

One more bit of good news...

I went to visit my bike that I'm working on paying off at Eddy's, well, I was actually making a payment but I still talked to it! :) I noticed the identical bike in a size large was on sale $200 cheaper. So I asked if they would be willing to reduce the price of mine and sho-nuff they DID!!! Yessss! I get my bike $200 sooner!!!!!! :)

A Little Ray of Sunshine Already!

After getting such terrible news about Kevin's condition Monday, I got a call on Tuesday from my brother and he sounded quite happy! Apparently the follow up scans they did Monday to verify the spreading results showed NOTHING!! They showed an all clear! Long story short, the doctors are very confused. But, at least now we there is a 50/50 chance of good news again! So, in the mean time Kev's going to continue on the chemo regimen he was on prior to surgery while they do more scans over the next few weeks to try and decide what's going on. I'm going to choose to believe the scan that showed 'spreading' was just a mistake until they find another scan that confirms the spreading! Hopefully it was all just a big error! Woohoo!

P.S. Sorry for stealing your some of your blog entry Kim! :)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


Ok, I haven't ranted in a day or so. I need to talk about my brother, his situation really bugs the hell out of me. I'm going through the question portion of why him, why us. He doesn't deserve any of this, why cancer, why him, why didn't the chemo work the first time?

The update is, my brother went back to have tests done and start up on chemo again. His tests confirmed the worst, not only was the tumor still on his kidney but has doubled in size. The cancer also spread to his adrenal glands and a small tumor on his scapula. Now we have gone from finishing up chemo treatments to continuing chemo treatments, adding two weeks of radiation therapy and a mid-December, merry fucking Christmas, removal of part or all of his kidney. I'm so angry I spent the evening crying and the night laying awake staring at the ceiling. (A big thank you to Molly for coming over from Youngstown to be with me for the evening. She's just plain incredible, words can't describe how much she means to me.)

Why the hell around Christmas, Kevin loves Christmas. He would always get enough toys to make his sister and I jealous and remind him of Christmas past when we would get 50% clothes and 50% toys instead of an 10/90 split like him.

Why do my parents have to go through this, I can see the years piling on every week when I go home to help out. My Dad won't get his shoulder looked at because he feels he needs to be ready to help out with Kevin, my Mom is beside herself. She's a nurse, she knows the damn odds that are stacking up here. Why does Kevin have to suffer at 20 years of age?

It would be nice if there was more answers than questions but that is all I can seem to find at this point in time. Sorry for the rant.

Kevin is still in good spirits and keeps his emotions close so it's hard to read him. Right now he seems OK so we will all continue to fight with, for him.

He's my hero.


I've already sent in my absentee ballot! I think it's time for a change. :)

Monday, November 3, 2008

Browns vs. Ravens

I went to the Browns game yesterday. The game was awesome for the first 3 quarters. However, you knew it was going to go downhill quick when wide receivers started dropping balls and DA couldn't covert a 3rd down to save his miserable throwing life. I mean seriously, how many minutes does the defense have to play before they get a break? They were work out!!! My boy Sean Rogers is BIG he needs a breather!

Let's take a step back for a second, how much do these guys make? They aren't saving lives, teaching children, balancing budgets, developing a cure for cancer, dealing with clients or feeding starving children. They get paid millions to throw and catch a football, THAT'S IT! If I got paid millions to walk around on my hands, you can bet your sweet ass I would never buy a pair of shoes again! How can the Browns take a relatively simple theory and make it seem so difficult?

Anyway, Molly and I thoroughly enjoyed each others company and the atmosphere of Cleveland Stadium! We also had incredible seats!!! Check out the pics:

Dawson, warming up

7 rows back on the home side of the field
Molly and me! :)

Cribbs waiting to do his thing!

Cribbs once he did his thing, 6 points richer!

Anderson looking to happy to complete a pass!


Well, I've totally fallen off any sort of exercise routine. Sometimes when this happens I feel like it's meant to happen so you don't get burnt out. However, I'm ready to start back up again. I'm not sure exactly what to do but I'll figure it out.

In the meantime, last week, Molly and I carved some mean looking pumpkins. Molly mad a wicked smiley face and I carved a decent looking spider using a stencil kit.

Hope everyone had a great Halloween!!!

Molly hard at work!

Our Masterpieces!!!